Mornings
Mornings the one thing you can’t escape every day, walking up early, never enough sleep, always a feeling you will take the day off to continue your dreamy sleep, but you know you can’t and then comes the rest of the day, but what counts is that normally these mornings are the thermometer of your day, the indicator who tells you will it be a funny or a doll day, and you really can’t help it, it has nothing to do with what you want or like, it is a mood you wear the moment you open your eyes in the morning, a mood composed of all what you did and encounter the day before, a complex mood that needs few minutes after waking up to just get it, and then normally you begin taking your bath, finish dressing, preparing yourself for going out for work quietly without a word, silent procedures as if you are concentrating in something when you are just continuing your wake up procedures.And here comes the long silly drive to work, it could be funnier if you just enjoy the sites but normally your brain is full of work thoughts, what have you done, what is missing, what you should do to your career or to people around you, are you happy and suddenly you find yourself in work. These are my usual mornings, sometimes it is much brighter sometimes it is much sadder but a wish to have a good day in the early morning could help sometimes.Others wake up hating life, waiting for the worse to happen or loving life waiting for the best in life and don’t know why, why this day is better than another, why I feel so much hope today despite the depression I had two days ago, why I don’t want to do any thing today, I feel like a looser, a failure, why sometimes I feel I own the universe and others I feel totally alone in this planet, and still we don’t really know why, we analyze our lives, our hopes, our behaviour and we refer these feelings to them but it is all about your sleep and waking, your morning mood, the result of all the yesterday thoughts and the night dreams with the morning hope, the suit you choose to wear under your clothes, how will you treat life and wait to be treated from life each day.I always thought I could conquer that by giving myself a big hope in the morning, a wish that life will be better today, a hope that every bad thing will change into good thing this particular day, and even when the day finishes and nothing happened, I say to myself I was mistaken, it is all tomorrow and so on, but sometimes it fails me, I wake up in the morning hopeless, full of bad thoughts and all the hopes and wishes I give to myself can’t help me, some times bad thoughts over well me and I can’t help it, but it lasts for a day or two and hope returns quietly, I realized that your mood and its elements can be managed in the early morning before you enter the day with its complications, when you still can change the mood you will wear from bad to good, just by saying I will try to do my best to make this day better, and it will be better but it needs you to have faith in god, and a bit of confidence in yourself.


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