Tired, exhausted, overstressed, sick with a terrible head-each, took the day off and lying in front of TV and PC from the morning, it seams like arranging my files and documents make me feel better.It is a strange atmosphere am living in these days, lots of depression, lots   of sickness, lots of tears and in the other side lots of love and hope.It is amazing how you find love and tenderness in the darkest situation you face, how you meet hope just when all doors are shut into your face. I really don’t know this time, am I sick in my body or in my mind, is it a physical illness or a mental one? It seams like my soul is a bit fevered.For so long am feeling lots of stress in work and at home, so many people and friends in work and life are depending on me when things go bad, so many friends relax while telling me about their worries, their fears, their moments of weakness, their doubts and also their passions and their hidden terrible feelings.And as usual from time to time I get halted, I get sad and sorrows fill my heart without noticing it, may be it is the lake of feelings that surrounds us, may be it is the amount of hate that we found between people, may be the accumulation of bad luck, may be it is just a big dose of sadness that fill me and needs an outlet from my mind.It never works when you try to analyse yourself so simply it seams like my mind affects my body and drive me to a sickness phase, or I am just hallucinating from the drugs I took for my sickness.